middle of nowhere
two months in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of the night, with the olympus xa and a single roll of film.
even after all that rushing around, where we've ended up is the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night. and maybe knowing isn't the point.
I always carry this little camera in my car, the olympus xa. sometimes I finish a roll in a couple of days, sometimes it takes months. I loaded this film in the beginning of november, finished it during christmas. I got a red/green/blue representation out of the images, which is kinda funny, considering it's a single roll of film. shame I didn't get more "blue" photos.
[olympus xa | rossmann 400 | november/december 2013 | quote by chuck palahniuk's choke]
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a night at the summer cinema
a night at "Ellinis" summer cinema, trying to capture its mood.
είναι κάτι νύχτες με φεγγάρι μες τα θερινά τα σινεμά νύχτες που περνούν που δε θα ξαναρθούν μ’ αγιόκλημα και γιασεμιά there are some moonlit nights in the summer cinemas nights that move on never to return with honeysuckle and jasmine [ellinis summer cinema | olympus xa | fuji provia 100f | june 2013 | lyrics by loukianos kilaidonis' "the summer cinemas"]
...arriving.
...watching.
...leaving.
the big unknown
out in the big scary unknown, with the olympus xa and cross-processed fuji sensia 400.
people don't want their lives fixed. nobody wants their problems solved. their dramas. their distractions. their stories resolved. their messes cleaned up. because what would they have left? just the big scary unknown. [olympus xa | fuji sensia 400 xpro | january/february 2013 | quotes by chuck palahniuk's survivor]
you think maybe if you just work harder and faster, you can hold off the chaos, but then one day you're changing a patio lightbulb with a 5-year life span and realize how you'll only be changing this light maybe ten more times before you'll be dead.
reality means you live until you die. the real truth is nobody wants reality.
and the sky is blue and righteous in every direction. the sun is total and burning and just right there, and today is a beautiful day. testing, testing, one, two-
roaming
roaming in black and white, looking for clouds, rain, wind, silence.
"an agent is a system that is situated in some environmentand is capable of flexible, autonomous action in that environment in order to meet its design objectives." "agent based modelling of calcium handling in cardiac cells", MSc dissertation, theodoros markou, university of sheffield, 2004/05 [mesogeia | various cameras | various fuji b/w films | november/december 2012]
a story about restlessness
...life on the road.
"some stories, she'd say, the more you tell them, the faster you use them up.those kind, the drama burns off, and every version, they sound more silly and flat. the other kind of story, it uses you up. the more you tell it, the stronger it gets. those kind of stories only remind you how stupid you were. are. will always be." [olympus xa | polypan f 50 | june/july 2012]
a disjointed story
...photography is a form of psychotherapy.
note to viewer
photography is a form of psychotherapy. loading a roll of film in a camera, walking around, snapping away when you feel like it, not doing anything when you don't feel like it, finishing the roll after days or weeks, the mystery of the soon-to-be-developed images, the anticipation, the excitement.
the realisation that you shot so many different themes in just 36 frames. a disjointed feeling, how do all these fit together? how does your life fit together? so many different themes, sometimes.
how do you present them? do you wait months, years, for the themes to build up in order to unveil a finished product? or do you just present the images as they come, roll by roll, incoherent, incomplete?
photography is my psychotherapy. it keeps my mind ticking. I'll continue roll by roll, presenting loose, unconnected themes. some day I'll try to connect them, to make a cohesive story out of a million puzzle pieces. some day, hopefully, I will understand. some day I hope you'll understand, too.
all of the following images were shot on a single roll of fuji superia 400, with the olympus xa, during june 2012.
three parts, maybe two-and-a-half themes. oh, and there's one missing.
part I
part II
part III
another life story
day / dusk / night / dawn.
there are always detours along the journey.[olympus xa | fuji superia 400]
day
dusk
night
dawn
